11 months post cancer surgery

 I am getting near my 1st year anniversary post cancer surgery.   My numbers are going up and  down.  Some days are better then others and sometimes I feel that I may loose this battle at some point.  The worse part is that I can’t do anything about what is happening to me. There is no medicine there is no chemo or radiation all I can do is try to keep fit and eat healthy and keep checking my numbers and cat scans.  Once I hit 100 I will need chemo and who knows what else.  I hate the needles, contrast and scans.  I feel like I have an alien spices inside which is waiting to hatch and kill me.  I am trying to eat a vegetarian diet now and hope that by doing that I will have a better chance of fighting this and win!   I haven’t been able to get enough protein each day so I drink three 32g protein shakes a day which gives me more protein than ever and I eat maybe a yogurt with fruit or some tiny veggie snack.  Eating makes me sick and I feel bloated when I eat solid food so this type of eating is great. I drink my food and I am not bloated. I mix the powder with water so I also get my water intake.  I think I will need to add some vitamins because this drink has more protein than anything else.  I try to stay active and fit.  Everyday I do my TRX exercise and few times a week I also do weights if I feel strong enough then I will go to the gym and do few miles on the elliptical machine.  I am going back to work and it can get very tiring.  I work on a TV show set as a crew and it can take with driving some days 16 hours and more.  If I work for 8 days ( each episode usually 8 or 9 days) then it can get very hard on my body.  Keeping fit and eating what I need will help.  Mentally and emotionally I will keep myself busy at work and pretty busy with my family and the house when I am off.