Nearing the 1st year anniversary

I am approaching my one year  Cancer anniversary.   My numbers are climbing back up and I feel that I may loose this battle at some point.  The worse part is that I can’t do anything about what is happening to me. There is no medicine there is no chemo or radiation all I can do is try to keep fit and eat healthy and keep checking my numbers and cat scans.  Once I hit 100 in my levels I will need chemo and who knows what else.  I hate the needles, dyes and scans.  I feel like I have an alien spices inside which is waiting to hatch and kill me.  I am trying to eat a vegetarian diet now.  I haven’t been able to get enough protein each day so I drink three 32g protein shakes a day which gives me more protein than ever and I eat maybe a yogurt with fruit or some tiny veggie snack.  Eating makes me sick and I feel bloated when I eat solid food so this type of eating is great. I drink my food and I am not bloated. I mix the powder with water so I also get my water intake.  I think I will need to add some vitamins because this drink has more protein than anything else.